Season 15 of The Bachelorette wrapped on July 30th, and the following couple of weeks were busy for the show’s leading lady to say the least. It’s hard not to feel sorry for Hannah Brown, who came out of the show with a broken engagement. She’s been optimistic about the future, saying that she’s happy being single for now, but the tumultuous Bachelorette season has taken its toll on her.

Hannah took to Instagram on August 12th to open up about her whirlwind year, writing,

“Honest policy: I’m struggling. Life is so different. Since last August, I’ve been a pageant queen, a bachelor contestant, and the Bachelorette. I’ve been in love with multiple people, I got engaged, I broke off an engagement, and I shared it all with millions of people. My faith has been questioned by thousands who don’t know my heart, and my transparency with my decisions has labeled me promiscuous.”

While Hannah said that she’s okay, she admitted to being “overwhelmed” by the fame and scrutiny that has come with being on the mega-popular show. She added,

“I am not complaining about this past year of adventures. The woman who has emerged would shock the mirror-image young girl from a year ago. I have so many blessings to be thankful for. However it’s uncharted territory for me, and it’s been hard to really process what the heck is going on.”

Adding to the fact that she’s in the middle of a media storm, Hannah’s now living on her own for the first time. She mentioned that she feels guilty for having less time for her family and friends, but said that she’s relying on her faith in God to keep her strong as she moves forward.

Hannah shocked fans in The Bachelorette finale when she ended things with Jed Wyatt. She then asked out Tyler Cameron, the season’s runner up. Tyler said “yes” and, for a moment, Hannah looked like she might get that happily ever after. Just a few days after their date, however, Tyler was revealed to have moved on to supermodel Gigi Hadid. Hannah kept her chin up in the media frenzy that followed.

Still, it was clear to fans that Hannah was stung by Tyler’s actions. Two days later, she admitted on the Bachelor Happy Hour podcast that seeing Tyler move on so quickly did hurt her.

But she affirmed that she’s ready to get on with her life.

Hannah added that she still has feelings for Tyler, but that she also has, quote, “beef with him” for how he handled things.

Her anger doesn’t extend to Gigi Hadid. The day after the podcast aired, Hannah urged her fans to be kind to Hadid. According to People magazine, she wrote on her Instagram story,

“I am forever so thankful for the love and support you all show me. However, supporting me doesn’t mean you have to compare me to anyone else. I want to make sure that we are all remembering to uplift other women and not tear them down.”

It’s hard not to admire Hannah for staying out of the drama, even if things are difficult for her right now. In her lengthy August 12th Instagram post, she added,

“Life is beautiful, but wild. I think it’s okay to be strong, to know you’re strong, but to still feel weak simultaneously. I believe that’s when the magic happens. My spirit has opportunity to grow and blossom from this place.”

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